"When your heart speaks, take good notes"
Judith Campbell
This post is personal...I trust you won't mind some 'up close/personal' time. After all, we are friends & you're quite special.
How often does your heart simply gather you in its being...I mean it puts you in a moment like no other...a something almost magical that encapsulates you with indescribable aura? I found myself in such a moment Sunday morning.
How often does your heart simply gather you in its being...I mean it puts you in a moment like no other...a something almost magical that encapsulates you with indescribable aura? I found myself in such a moment Sunday morning.
As most of you know, my love...my wonderful Michael became a recipient of Amy (Amyloidosis...an incurable, fatal condition...rare with not much known about it...except it's bad) more than three years ago. Amy moved in quite unexpectedly...ouch; oh. we call her Amy...she's 'the other woman' in our marriage.
Much of the time we tend to 'forget' that she's taken up residence in M's throat...but circumstances occasionally bring her in for a real show. He tends to choke...it's difficult for him to swallow and his voice is iffy...it's stressful because he likes very much to do things well...especially eating and talking.
Michael enjoys singing; he sang in chorus while in school...he's led singing for church worship, etc...weddings. He also loves to teach and he's an excellent one; lots of good experience.
Due to Amy's presence those activities are really not feasible...maybe he would have a voice...maybe not. Too many 'ifs' to be dependable...you get the message, right?
Recently there have been some procedures that seem to brighten his future in those 'foggy' areas...aah, God is good. And good things happen...they really do! You know that.
Back to Sunday morning...the congregation began singing and our singing is always awesome...we are blest w/many beautiful voices.
Alan was directing the singing and he has a wonderful voice and personality...the fourth song was one of my favorites 'The Greatest Command'...all about God's love! And 'I love, love, love it'.
Into the second part I suddenly became aware of Michael's voice (never missing a note) coming out very strong...no hoarseness...no failing...just his wonderful steady voice...singing, singing, singing.
God is love, God is love...God is love...oh my God, you are so love! Awesome!
On the subject of 'love', it seems the longer the two of us are married, the closer we sit together...we hold hands more...we touch more...(could be so we won't stagger or fall but I believe it's due to the warmth of our love).
Well, I looked at Michael while we were singing and an indescribable love totally swept me up to a paradise...love took over...my love for God coupled with my love for M was overwhelming! I felt my eyes misting and about to form tears...my voice, my body trembled with that love and the tremendous thankfulness that filled my heart. I touched him...I was touched.
Amy isn't going away (she doesn't operate that way)...she lives with us but as long as she stays quiet and comfortable in her special compartment? Okay, even if she goes berserk...we're doing what comes naturally...following 'the greatest command'.
Incidentally, we stay 'gassed up' ~ at this point we can't afford to run out of gas and thus far we've not picked up any toads to swallow to make the rest of each day easier...we're in good shape!
The feeling I had while M was singing...well, I've not stopped mentally singing & happily humming 'God is love, God is love' for the remainder of the day yesterday...when I went to bed...when I joined M for coffee this morning and throughout this day...even this instant...and I'm thinking it's here to stay!
Talk about a 'WOW' moment...I think this is really my 'WOW' life.
Just now I put my hand on my heart and Heart said, "Thank God for loving me...loving Michael...for loving us. Thank God."
Duly noted.
From my heart...to yours!
Vasca
Michael enjoys singing; he sang in chorus while in school...he's led singing for church worship, etc...weddings. He also loves to teach and he's an excellent one; lots of good experience.
Due to Amy's presence those activities are really not feasible...maybe he would have a voice...maybe not. Too many 'ifs' to be dependable...you get the message, right?
Recently there have been some procedures that seem to brighten his future in those 'foggy' areas...aah, God is good. And good things happen...they really do! You know that.
Back to Sunday morning...the congregation began singing and our singing is always awesome...we are blest w/many beautiful voices.
Alan was directing the singing and he has a wonderful voice and personality...the fourth song was one of my favorites 'The Greatest Command'...all about God's love! And 'I love, love, love it'.
Into the second part I suddenly became aware of Michael's voice (never missing a note) coming out very strong...no hoarseness...no failing...just his wonderful steady voice...singing, singing, singing.
God is love, God is love...God is love...oh my God, you are so love! Awesome!
On the subject of 'love', it seems the longer the two of us are married, the closer we sit together...we hold hands more...we touch more...(could be so we won't stagger or fall but I believe it's due to the warmth of our love).
Well, I looked at Michael while we were singing and an indescribable love totally swept me up to a paradise...love took over...my love for God coupled with my love for M was overwhelming! I felt my eyes misting and about to form tears...my voice, my body trembled with that love and the tremendous thankfulness that filled my heart. I touched him...I was touched.
Amy isn't going away (she doesn't operate that way)...she lives with us but as long as she stays quiet and comfortable in her special compartment? Okay, even if she goes berserk...we're doing what comes naturally...following 'the greatest command'.
Incidentally, we stay 'gassed up' ~ at this point we can't afford to run out of gas and thus far we've not picked up any toads to swallow to make the rest of each day easier...we're in good shape!
The feeling I had while M was singing...well, I've not stopped mentally singing & happily humming 'God is love, God is love' for the remainder of the day yesterday...when I went to bed...when I joined M for coffee this morning and throughout this day...even this instant...and I'm thinking it's here to stay!
Talk about a 'WOW' moment...I think this is really my 'WOW' life.
Just now I put my hand on my heart and Heart said, "Thank God for loving me...loving Michael...for loving us. Thank God."
Duly noted.
From my heart...to yours!
Vasca
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